discoveringdesaray

 Cruel, sadistic, evil, and a master manipulator Arrogant, cool, corrupt, and a child molester Brutal, vicious, selfish, and a wife beater Liar, cheater, devious, and an addict Perverted, disgusting, respected, and  a smooth talker Sneaky, deceitful, snooper, and an all around nice guy Short-tempered, foul-mouthed, animal abuser, and the worst kind of menace Hypocrite, self-serving, bitter, and community favored Ugly, dirty, stench-drenched, and oh, so handsome Bloody hands, black heart, perverse mind, and a stellar role model Terrorist, dictator, pedophile, and hometown hero  Monster, boogeyman, nightmare, and a real stand up guy

 Free to be me The one who was created so creatively I'm free to be who I was called to be To receive all that has been set aside for me I'm free to carry within the power of life and death Death always being the reminder Of the life I'm free to lead I'm free to speak truthfully and without shame No hesitation in my game I am free to like and dislike as I please Regardless of what anyone else thinks of me I am free to protect myself and my family From those who don't hold our best interest at heart And I'm free to say no when I'm tired Or just don't feel the part I am free to live and love and learn I'm free to be a cool breeze upon your face Or the slow burn That cuases you to pick up your pace I am free to write from the heart  Write what is real and true Without a veil of secrecy Just to please you I am free to be comfortable And pretty And curvy  And sometimes a little petty I am free to believe even if you disagree I am free to find joy And hope...

 My birthright? Is it my right to be born? To be torn from my mother By another To be scorned by my father Who would rather Be free of the conflict? Ill-equipped to handle The candle lit With parental commitment Birthright Is it my stage fright? My right to be terrified By curious eyes Wondering what I have to share And will I dare Cross any lines Or exceed my time Will I be dull and a waste Of their time and taste Birthright Is it my love for twilight When the moonlight Kisses the sun goodnight And the day disappears As we slow down and face our fears We don't have to be so polite Or sunny and bright We can stop the charade That all day we played Birthright Is it my love for my white knight Who came in to rewrite Every red light Of my past With true love that will last He ignites me in the midnight hour As he unites me with his strength and power And reminds me That he is always behind me Birthright Is it my fight or flight mentality Or is it my butt and thighs that make me feel m...

 I am pissed At the way you slid in And hissed Ugly words of venom Injecting and dismissing The sanctity of my family With words used like a weapon Used to tear us down Attacking what is most sacred I have found I am really pissed At your hatred And lack of compassion And human decency As you attack me With words filled with insensitivity Cloaked in trickery And you seem to think that Our friendship will somehow be Enough to save us both From this terminal diagnosis You just served up On a silver platter of treachery Thinking an LOL on the side  Would smooth it all away I must say I am pissed That you would dare To call me a name used to mock us By a world too blind to see The term is a blessing Bestowed upon us By the One who created us  A term used to honor us And describe us as His own As He leads us home So I have to say I am pissed That you who I thought was family Is possibly only the enemy Because if you aren't one of us The ones you scorn Then maybe you are only d...

 Meet me in the in between In the seam Where my dreams  Meet with reality I can feel What may not be real For a moment to steal With you In you Around you Beside you Absorbed by you 

 Sun: This morning as my day began to break I expected to glimpse you as you slipped away Just like any other day But instead of sliding away  Hiding off in another night Somewhere around the planet You stayed, you remained Shining, not hiding At first my white knight A spotlight beckoning me forward Toward your silver charms  And cloudless wonder No obstruction, no rebuffing  Just you--  My glorious and perfect moon Moon: Oh, my love and my light I just couldn't bear to spend yet another night Just out of reach Reflecting my emptiness onto another sea I needed refueled and refilled By the beauty and purity you instill Each time you shine on me The hope you bring pours out on me And instead of being a pale complexion I become a blossoming reflection Of the strength you carry The power and the hope that you marry Sun: We have danced this dance for far too long My head aches from the repeated cadence of this song I marched over the horizon with confidence Then I s...

 I see you winking Blinking at me across the midnight sky High above my windowpane Laying on the charm so thick Slick as always Hallways of moonbeams  Leading you to me Free from obstruction Destruction at bay Say you love me Be the lover I long for More...I need more More than the norm Torn between The seen and unseen Mean what you say Say how you feel Deal with the real Real hearts Not a world apart Side by side Confide Abide No pride No fear No holding back Under the cover of black Dress me in your  brightest light As I stand before you in my  darkest night 

Oh, my dear and precious moon, why are you so blue? Are the problems of this world once again reflecting off of you? Oh, my dear and precious friend, please look and see See the truth and love and wonder reflecting off of me You light up the darkness and make it shine You ocassionally give the sun someone safe to hide behind You are a guide in the deepest, darkest night  You inspire me with golden light  Oh, dear and precious moon, fight the doubts that try to consume Look toward the Creator not behind, where only darkness looms You may belong to the night But you cannot deny the light Not when it shines so brightly from right inside of you My dear and precious moon, You are a lamp, a torch, a candle burning Don't lose heart, just know you're still learning Oh, dear and precious friend,  The sunshine is just around the bend

 I am smothered by the darkest of nights My moon has vanished He turned away from me Spun out into another time and place Another star has replaced His brightest light His hope and source of life He always thought he was my opposite But really we were just lop-sided,  Never really making a match As I tried to be his catch But he had a different type And a different life He desired From the fire We found The fire That burned me to the ground Now I see him in the distance  Burning brighter And higher Than he ever has before While I lay on the cold, dark floor Dimmer somehow Without his reflection showing me how To shine as my true self  While he hides in the shadows offering me help His presence emboldened me  The ties that bound us made me free Now I'm shackled by the night  Imprisoned in the daylight Watching him rise and set over and over again On someone else's horizon 

Knees gripped, Teeth gritted Huff, Huff, Puff, Puff Bear down with all your strength Push! Push! Push! Forcing life into existence Break and breathe Cry and heave Grip and grit Huff and puff Push! Push! Push! Ring of fire burning me alive Flesh tearing as your blood mingles with mine Grip and grit Huff and puff Bear down baby C’mon…push lady! The sound of fluid and flesh Sliding over one another as we mesh And separate one from the other I fall back to catch my breath And I wait... To hear you...catch yours too… And I wait… To hear you… Silence...resounds… As I await...your voice… The lack of sound… Uneasy noise… What’s wrong? Why can’t I hear him? Where is his birth song? Is he breathing? Why can’t he breathe?! The longest seconds of my life Were as I waited for you to breathe Begging God to blow His breath Upon your need Then up you were held In the spotlight of glory! Covered in our flesh You shouted your victory cry Declaring yo...

I am, like the rest of the world, just completely heartbroken and shattered by the tragic loss of life suffered by the helicopter crash on Sunday morning. The loss of these precious lives--those known by the public and those unknown to most of us--is just too much. As a fan of the sport of basketball--and a fan of Kobe Bryant--I am shocked and devastated by the loss of a legend and an amazing influencer and giver to the world. The lives he has touched in and out of the game are too many to count. As a parent, I am shook beyond measure at the thought of what this father must have experienced looking at his baby girl and knowing their lives were about to be over. I cannot begin to imagine the fear or the devastation he must have felt in those moments. The need to protect her from what he couldn't even protect himself from was most likely overpowering. The knowing that he would never see his wife or other three girls again...none us can know what that was like. The knowledge that he...