Eclipse Series: Pt. 6 "Rise of Shame"

 Sun:

This morning as my day began to break

I expected to glimpse you as you slipped away

Just like any other day

But instead of sliding away 

Hiding off in another night

Somewhere around the planet

You stayed, you remained

Shining, not hiding

At first my white knight

A spotlight beckoning me forward

Toward your silver charms 

And cloudless wonder

No obstruction, no rebuffing 

Just you-- 

My glorious and perfect moon

Moon:

Oh, my love and my light

I just couldn't bear to spend yet another night

Just out of reach

Reflecting my emptiness onto another sea

I needed refueled and refilled

By the beauty and purity you instill

Each time you shine on me

The hope you bring pours out on me

And instead of being a pale complexion

I become a blossoming reflection

Of the strength you carry

The power and the hope that you marry

Sun:

We have danced this dance for far too long

My head aches from the repeated cadence of this song

I marched over the horizon with confidence

Then I set eyes on you

Instead of offering healing 

I found myself reeling

Instead of hope for the day

I wished for clouds of gray

I wanted to hide

And let my teardrops slide

Like sheets to the ground

As everyone cringed from the sound

Of my heart breaking and shattering

Shaking and clattering

I wanted the whole earth to feel the pain of my fight

And loneliness of my personal night

Moon: 

I just had to see you

I just had to feel you

Your warmth saves my life

You give me the courage to fight

My need for you frightens me 

As i find others to enlighten me

Distrcting me from what I really want

It's the shadows you cast 

That come to haunt me

With things I can do nothing about

A desire the laws of physics  just won't allow

I call out to you but you never answer

I reach for you but you are never near

I am deflated by your resistance

But I am here by your existance

Don't you see how it has to be?

Created together in unity

Separated for eternity

I am yours

And you are mine

Created for each other and at the same time

The same holds that molded you, molded me

The same voice that spoke your name, also cried out for me

We have a purpose to serve on our opposite curves

You fill me with fire

A desire that threatens to eat me alive

I have to hide from your heat

Just to survive

But I need you

I crave you 

Sun: 

All you ever do is tell me why

You can never stay

But this eternal tie never goes away

I just need to breathe 

I need to meet the world without your shadow looming

Consuming my every thought and decision 

With the precision of a surgeon 

Ready to make his incision 

On the living heart of one that's dying 

For a fresh start

A chance to be someone

Anyone else except themself

Someone dying from all of the lying 

And endless trying 

That gets them nowhere 

And left with no one who cares

The one who dares

To dream 

That they may mean

More than an ocassional one night stand

With a moon man

Who says his place is somewhere else

Not with you 

But thank you 

For letting him swoop through 

A quick kiss 

After the eclipse 

And he is gone again 

Around the big, blue bend

While I'm left depleted and cold 

Used and old

You consume, but you don't restore

You use me as your whore

And drop me like a hot potato

A mushy mold of play-dough

Left to harden and crumble 

Until you come looking for another tumble

I cover myself with flimsy clouds 

As I make my rise of shame 

In front of crowds

They know

They saw as you eclipsed me

And then excused me

As you entranced me 

While you used me 

Spectators on the lawn 

Ready to applaud your presence 

Where it isn't meant to be

Then groan in disappointment 

When you are gone and they are stuck with only me

I hate you for leaving 

For seeing better than I 

Who is blinded by her own firy desire

And longing woe 

For a tomorrow 

That is too far out to ever know 

Yet the cycle continues

And still I miss you

And long for our next sweet kiss 

When you are more than just a glimpse

And instead my whole and perfect match

As we catch 

Our moment 

And our eclipse