Call Me a Sheep One More Time

 I am pissed

At the way you slid in

And hissed

Ugly words of venom

Injecting and dismissing

The sanctity of my family

With words used like a weapon

Used to tear us down

Attacking what is most sacred

I have found

I am really pissed

At your hatred

And lack of compassion

And human decency

As you attack me

With words filled with insensitivity

Cloaked in trickery

And you seem to think that

Our friendship will somehow be

Enough to save us both

From this terminal diagnosis

You just served up

On a silver platter of treachery

Thinking an LOL on the side 

Would smooth it all away

I must say

I am pissed

That you would dare

To call me a name used to mock us

By a world too blind to see

The term is a blessing

Bestowed upon us

By the One who created us 

A term used to honor us

And describe us as His own

As He leads us home

So I have to say

I am pissed

That you who I thought was family

Is possibly only the enemy

Because if you aren't one of us

The ones you scorn

Then maybe you are only disguised as one

By wearing the wool that was shorn

From the backs of the ones you look down upon

By a Shepherd who lovingly calls me

The name you use so cuttingly

You speak to degrade

And to judge

To mock

And to demean

Who are you

I don't know this person

And I am pissed

That I thought I ever did

How dare you

Speak to me

So insignificantly

And try to laugh it off

Like all is fine

When you just crossed a line

Neither of us can recover from

You act as though you're just having fun

With a pun

But disrespect rings the bell of truth

As you--you--

My supposed brother 

Is attacking me 

Blaming me

Criticizing me

Who have you lost

Tell me the cost

You have paid 

Who have you laid

In the ground

Or found

Blue in the face

As you speak with such disgrace

Who has been stolen from you

In the midst of this terror

This tragedy

This time of confusion and fear

Have you been forced to shed a tear

Close a casket

Or just post nasty comments over here

Who have you kissed for the last time

Who will be missing from your world

From now til the end of time

You have the audacity

To come at me

With name calling and stupidity

You have the nerve

To throw accusations

And superior attitudes

You speak on things you do not know

You can't even understand

And until you do

Back off

Because I am pissed

I am pissed at your 

Indecency

And your lack of humanity

What if it was you

Who couldn't breathe

Couldn't speak

All alone

In a bed

Surrounded by machines

And strangers you called liars last week

What if the only ones

Who could help save your life

Were the ones

You mocked

And dehumanized

What if they couldn't do enough

And your wife had to pull the plug

What would you say then

To the Shepherd

About the sheep you mocked

What would you say

Could you say

To atone

For the nastiness you bemoaned

Upon those hurting in His home

Making fun of 

Everyone

Using wisdom and caution

How will you answer for your rebellion

Your hate

How will you explain it all away

With another link

Another youtube video

Another conspiracy theory

Do you think He will hear ye?

Listen and understand?

Nod His head and make amends? 

Is that a chance you want to take?

As you keep spewing your hate

As you keep cutting those

Who are already bleeding

Those you are called to mend

And lend

A hand to

And pray for

Bind up

Show consideration

Instead of intimidation

Who are you?

I am so pissed

I have to even ask

Like I missed

Something important

In every conversation we have ever had

I am pissed

That I don't know you

As your fist plunges into my chest

I confess 

I am lost

And a mess

Over the pain of your betrayal

And the lack of grace

At your disposal

To have my family so dismissed

Was a twist

I never saw coming

From a friend

From a brother

Some other maybe

But you?

You?

Family has become blasphemy

Brotherhood has filed bankruptcy

And not so tactfully

You have called it quits

And I am pissed

That you don't even seem to mind

Unkind

You continue to be

Audaciously

Flaunting and taunting

Have you ever stopped to even consider

To wonder

To listen

Instead of insisting

You are right and we are wrong

And nothing else matters

Except that song

And a friendship long

Is dissolving

Before your eyes

And nothing you say can deny

What is happening

Nothing you do can undo

That damage your words have brought

The death your treachery has wrought

And apologies mentioned blandly

Will not undo the damage done so grandly

As if you would even deign

To offer them

So busy are you serving up disdain

To any who don't think like you

Excuse us all over here

Just trying to survive this year

Keep our heads up

Show love

And trying not to die

By 

The hand of those meant to protect us

Serve us 

While those who were sent to love us

Only betray us

Trying not to die

By the hand of an invisible serial killer

And because it hasn't killed you

You think it hasn't killed enough to matter

If one soul turns to God and the entire

Population of heaven rejoices...

Why is one soul not enough

For the entire population 

Of earth to care

To mourn

To be warned

Of death knocking on our door 

And even if you don't care

You aren't scared

Aren't you called to show love

To be compassioante

To be merciful

And understanding

Where is any of that fruit in your basket

Because all I smell is rotting death

Coming from a casket

Where the table of unity and brotherhood

Used to be

I am really pissed

Because you will be missed

As I say good-bye

To another lost

In this virus 

Not to it

But as a destructive and disastrous 

Bystander of it

Man, I am really pissed